Over it

I'm very tired of being so fucking responsible. I try so hard to do everything right - don't fuck up at work, pay all the bills on time, treat everyone with respect - all that shit.

But, I feel like I'm coming apart at the seams.

I overdrew my bank account for the second time in three months (really a Very Bad thing in my moral book), my attitude at work is sinking, I've got these anger issues I mentioned below....

Basically I'm Not Perfect.

And somehow that isn't allowed in my book. I can't fuck up. I must always be perfect, or so close to it that small slips are forgivable.

But that isn't reality. And I have such a fucking hard time making the life of my mind reflect reality.