Monday, August 26, 2013

It's Time.

So it looks like I will be quitting my job soon.  I had a chat with my mom, and we decided that the only way for me to really make a move into massage therapy was to take a leap into the future.

The problem is that my current work schedule doesn't allow for a second job.  Or it doesn't allow for a transitional second job.  Most massage places want LMTs to work during the week day, not in the evening only.  This has been one of two of my biggest road blocks so far.  The other being money.  I'm tied to my cabinet job because it pays my bills.  In order to walk away from that job (thus opening up my schedule so I can work LMT jobs), I would need some sort of cash influx.  Savings, a winning lottery ticket, a sugar daddy, or the Bank of Mom.  Seeing as the first three haven't materialized yet, it's going to be the BoM.  (Or, the BoMB as Mom's last name starts with B!!)

Tomorrow I have an interview with a clinic close by where I would be one of two LMTs on staff (the other LMT being one of the co-owners).  The other folks who work there are naturopaths and acupuncturists.  I like their attitude (as expressed on their website), and love the area where they are located.  I hope that I find what I'm looking for there.

If that interview goes well I will contact the owner of the place where I took Ashiatsu classes and set up an interview with her.  We had talked about me going in for an interview, but as soon as I told her my time availability (or lack thereof), we decided that this might not be the best time for me to apply with her.  I had explained the possibility of going to the BoMB, but hadn't actually had that discussion with the BoMB CFO yet.  Now I have.  So I will tell the Ashiatsu therapist that the BoMB has offered to help me through the transition, and that my schedule will be very open due to the support of BoMB.

Big cleansing sigh.

It's time.  Time to really make the leap and move on.

I'm excited but nervous.  My whole life I've believed on some level that I'm not necessarily worthy of having the things I really want.  I'm supposed to be living on whatever comes my way, a decent but not overly impressive income.  I'm to survive, but not necessarily thrive.  And now I might actually have the opportunity to move towards thriving.

I hope I find my path there soon.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Wish List

What I would like:

To have a massage job (or two, or three) that supplants my current cabinet job.  For those jobs to be reasonably close to where I live, and feed me emotionally with my massage work as well as cover my food bills.  I want to work with people whom I am comfortable with.  I want an environment that is more relaxing than stressful.  I want good communication between coworkers as well as between workers and the Boss.  To feel like I am actually helping my clients feel better, emotionally as well as physically.

To have enough money to not have to worry Every Single Month about paying my bills.

To have That Guy in my life.

To have Ashiatsu bars up in my massage room.

To have enough regular clients at my home business that I can legitimately feel like it's a business.

To have time and money to invest into making my back yard a comfortable place to visit.

To have friends who live close enough to call up on a whim and go see a movie, or go get a drink, or just hang out and shoot the shit.

To have local friends who like to sit around and shoot the shit with me.

To have friends who are capable of listening to me instead of focusing on themselves.  (Granted, I'm a really good listener and don't always feel comfortable talking about myself, so this is definitely partly on me, not just on my friends.)

To have time to explore new places, to Get Things Done, to expand my horizons.

Cinderella

I like being alone.  Not always, but often enough.  but I'd like to have a man in my life.

Well, I do have a man.  But he isn't completely available.  So what we have is a nice flirtation.  I love having that time with him, but really I'd like to have him in my life more often.  But he isn't completely available.

So.

So I've been buying dresses lately.  Going out to events.  Hoping that someone, somewhere will see me and be so overwhelmed by my beauty, by my presence, that he'll come after me.

Hahahahahahaha!  Oh, right.  That only happens in fairy tales.  And if this life I'm living is a fairy tale, I'm currently in the "before" phase.

But enough of bitter sarcasm.

Nope, that's all I've got right now.